on where im headed

i went to ateneo this morning to fix things needed for med school. i was walking towards mvp until it hit me.

there were 4 months left. 4 months that would definitely breeze through and it would all be over before i know it.

i experienced a lot in ateneo. i flew all the way to heaven, fell down to earth and dug my way up from down below. quoting ven, "we experienced the world".

i felt then, that i didn't want to go to med anymore. i want to stay here. i want to stay where i am right now, where everything is safe and familiar. med school sounds so difficult, so scary, so cold and intimidating.

it sounds like something i can't handle.

when i saw my certificate of good moral character, i remembered that this is my dream. this is what i've wanted to be ever since i started signing autograph books. sure, i may have been confused along the way, but this is still what i want to be.

i should probably let go of everything i'm scared of and just go for it. i found that everything i do, when mixed w/ fear, turns out to be half-baked. there are only a few things in my life which didn't end up that way.

and i want med school to be a part of those few things.