entomophobia/insectophobia

as a child, i was always afraid of bugs.especially cockroaches...both the crawling and flying kind.
about one and a half years ago,i actually believed i've conquered my fear of cockroaches.only to find out yesterday-or rather really really early this morning- that i was still afraid of them.

is it possible for a phobia or something to come back?....hhhmm... *shrug* anyway, this is how i rediscovered my fear of cockroaches...

because it's summer and all, both my sisters and i were still awake at 2 am.she was surfing on the internet and i was reading a book.to save electricity, my mum decided that we should sleep in my brother's room.pra d mgastos sa aircon.tpos ung shoti ko lumipat sa room ng parents ko. so 3 kmi sa kwarto:ako, c atchie and c ahia.by that time, my brother was already asleep...for about 30 mins.so we were doing our own thing...my brother sleeping, my sister surfing the net and me reading a book.i was feeling drowsy ng biglang sumigaw atchi ko "flying ipis!!!!!" nwla bgla antok ko.pti ahia ko ngising tpos takbo kmi palabas ng kwarto.it was 2 am in the morning and d 3 of us were causing suh a riot just because of 1 damn flying ipis.lmipat kmi sa kabilang kwarto (our room not my parents' room) and my brother and i were seriously thinking of sleeping there instead.despite our not having any pillows and blankets and stuff.atchie on the other hand, really wanted to go back to her computer.kc my kung cnong kausp sa ym.eventually, d na nmin mkta kng san na ung ipis kya bumalik na kmi....

anyway, ngyon i get really edgy wen i see a cockroach.feeling ko it can sense my fear and it gets pleasure from it...npparanoid na ata ako?.... (prang nkkhawa ung pagkaparanoid mo caresse? :p)
tpos feeling ko llpitan ako or sumthing.....

tkot dn ako sa multo....and since ghosts are often associated w/ d dark then i guess im afraid of the dark too....