here goes.

this one's from nat. :) parang ang saya e.

List 20 things you want to say to people but know you never will. Don't say who they are.

1. ive known you since we were kids and ive never been able to tell you how grateful i am that you're just there. we may not talk or text much, but when we spend time together, it's always like the old days. tyong dalawa. believe it or not, but you know absolutely everything about me. kasi alam ko, no matter what happens, the one thing you will always give me is acceptance. so thanks. :) mahal kita, alam mo na dapat un. :)

2. hello blockmate. (cge, mghulaan kyo kng cnu to. hahaha.) alam mo naman na kahit anong oras, pwede mo ko kausapin. at alam mo rin na kahit busy ako, ill always make time for you. kaya mo bumangon, alam kong alam mo rin yan. and im so proud kasi nakikita kong un nga ang nangyayari ngyon. wg ka mgalala, kpg nahulog ka ulit, sasaluhin kta.

3. sandali plng tyo mgkakilala, pro prng super tagal na. salamat sa lahat ng nkwento mo skn tungkol sa buhay mo. minsan hindi ko alam anu ssbihin ko syo, pro lgi lng nmn ako handa makinig. salamat sa lhat ng tawanan. at ka-emohan. sana makita ktang gumagala-gala minsan sa ateneo. hindi na tyo ngkkta e. :P

4. ikaw, hanggang ngayon, hindi ko prin magawang kausapin ka ng maayos tungkol sa mga nangyari. gusto ko malaman mo na naiintindihan ko. kung bakit ganun ang nangyari. gusto ko malaman mo na okay na ang lahat. sorry kung nasaktan kita in any way. madali lang sumaya kung ggustuhin. so, be happy.

5. wag ka nman masyadong insecure. minsan lng tlga nakakainis na e. at wla akong paki kng alam mo kng cnu ka. kasi gnito tyo. wlang tinatago. lahat cnsbi. kaya nga nakakatuwa e. kasi alam kong kahit na magaway tyo, mgsigawan sa telepono, hindi magpansinan, magsagutan sa ym, we will eventually be okay. at kht hindi ko sabihin, alam kong alam mo na i love you. :P

6. you have seen me at my best and at my worst. at kahit anong mangyri, nndyan ka prin. nakita mo lahat ng kaya kong gawin. and pumalpak man ako, u never stopped believing that, eventually, i can and that i will.

7. wag ka na bumalik dun. dito ka na lang. hahaha. kahit na lgi ko lng pbiro cnsbi, seryoso ako, nmmiss kita. :)

8. hindi na tyo nguusap at hindi na rin kita msydo nkkta, rarely nlng. hindi mo mllman ever but u could have been a lot to me. and im so glad it didn't turn out that way. okay na ko na ganito tyo. okay na ko sa smile and wave lng. goodluck syo. :)

9. may gusto akong sabihin sayo. sobrang tgal na tlga. more than a year ko na gs2 sabihin. pero hindi ko tlga magawa kasi nttakot tlga ako sa mgging reaksyon mo. and kung dumating ung time na nasabi ko na syo, sana hindi ka mglit na inabot ako ng gnun ktgal. :P

10. buhay ka pa ba? kung oo, wag ka na magpakita sa akin kht kelan.

11. ive learned so much from you. cguro hindi mo alam un. pro totoo. i dont how i can ever repay you for every bit of advice uve given me, every word you defined for me (kasi ayaw mong itanong ko sa iba para hindi ako mapahiya :P), every show you asked me to watch just to "show" me "how it is". i know ive made some decisions ure not proud of, mnsan nkkta kong gs2 mo na tlga iuntog ung ulo ko sa dingding. pro kht gnun, lgi ka prn nndyan. >:D< thank you.

12. thanks for listening to me rant and rant about things. and thanks for doing the same when you need to vent. kahit na mga ganap na doctor na tyo (wlang kkontra, libre mangarap), sana hindi un mgbabago.

13. i think i liked you, or maybe even loved you then. and if i did, im pretty sure you knew. but thanks for not making anything out of it. thanks for teaching me to just go and live life. thanks for helping me take risks and assuring me that ill have you to fall back on when i make mistakes. i hope you know you have me too.

14. i once woke up and thought you left us. and alam ko ang sama. pro un tlga naramdaman ko. i didnt care. i hate it when im left alone with you. most of the tym, id rather that u just leave me alone. ewan ko bkt. cguro msydo lng akong naiinis kc when we were kids, uve always been someone distant, someone to be feared. and now that ure trying to "catch up", ewan. frankly, i dont even care if u try anymore. u cant break me.

15. i was a kid. i was in grade 1. and i trusted you. how could you do that? i didn't know any better. tpos nung nagkita tyo, u act as if nothing ever happened. how do u expect me to look at u and see someone respectable after what u did? kahit kelan, hindi ko makakalimutan ung gnwa mo.

16. thanks for trying to understand us. and for protecting us when things go wrong. i know i dont often say it, actually, rarely, pro sana nffeel mo na mahal kita. sana maging okay na ung thyroid thingy mo. i love you.

17. you dont know how much i look up to you. idol kita e. :)

18. i love talking to you and listening to what you have to say. alam ko na i can be all hyper or emo or depressed and ull just bear w/ me anyway. sana alam mo na gnun rin ako syo. :)

19. nakakainis ka. hindi ka na ngkkwento. lapit lapit lng ng bahay mo sa bahay ko e. magparamdam ka nmn dyan. ngpapamiss ka nnman e. grar ka, grar.

20. thanks for being what i need at the moment, all the time. persistence pays off. but you know that. :) i love you. :)