all over the place

wala nanaman akong gustong gawin.

wala nanaman akong ginagawa kung hindi humiga sa kama.

tinatamad pa akong mgupload. tinatamad akong mag-aral. tinatamad akong gumawa ng kahit ano.

sinabi ko na to sa ibang tao before christmas - gusto ko pumunta sa isang lugar na walang may kilala sakin. new home, new school, new friends (not that i wanna replace my friends), new everything. ewan ko. maybe i just want to relive a few things, take the other option, not be stupid, forget some stuff, hold my ground. tabula rasa.. i want a new start..

naisip ko, when it comes to people i love, nahihirapan akong tumanggi kahit kelangan. kahit alam kong mas masasaktan ako kapag pumayag ako. i'm stupid that way.. sabi nga ni ven, foot in the door phenomenon.

sometimes, things already have warning signs around them with flashing neon lights. and you still ignore the signs and go for it. because ure stubborn. because u wanted to go for it