came from the hospital

less than a month ago, my dad was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer. from his lungs, the cancer spread to his bones.

a few days ago, i heard my dad talking to his friend when he suddenly stuttered and his words were reduced to a single syllable. only 3 people witnessed this. me, my mom,and my dad's friend.

my mom talked to me about it and asked me whether i had any idea of what could have caused it. i told her to get a doctor to check my dad's brain.

last thursday, my dad was hospitalized 3 days earlier than what was scheduled. he was supposed to be admitted today for chemo. they found 2 cancer tumors in his brain.

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i'm still pretty much nr about the whole thing. i did wish the doctor's won't find anything. but they did. and i'm still here, still nr, still not sad about it. i don't want to say i'm apathetic because it sounds so bad. but i'm starting to think that maybe i am.