ang tgal kong d binuksan tong account na to. at ang tgal kong hindi ngupdate. well, kng alam nyo lhat ng nangyayari/nangyari sa buhay ko, matgal na yun. kasi normally, i update when there are major happenings in my life.

anyway, for a while back there, i cant open this blog. hindi ko kayang buksan ng hindi nalulungkot, ng hindi nasasaktan. because this blog has seen the start. and the end. and everything in between. it has been a testimony to all the fights, the cheesiness, the milestones.

but now, though there's still a pang of loneliness, it's bearable.

this blog, will see more starts and ends. it has seen me through everything and it will keep seeing me through everything. kasi hindi ko sisirain ang buhay ko dahil sa lahat ng nangyari. i have to pick up the pieces and start all over. mahirap, sobrang sobrang hirap. knowing that you, yes you, are not okay though you say you are. sa isang taon na ngsama tyo, ive grown to know when you're really okay.

pero kelangan. at kung hindi ako magsisimula ngayon, kailan pa? kung hindi ko gagawin to, sinong gagawa para sa akin? kung hindi ko susubukang mabuhay ulit, paano na?

*****

walang karma kung hindi ka hindu o buddhist. and because you are a Christian, hindi yan karma. just so happens na ngyon yan nangyari, na sumabay sa lahat. alagaan mo sarili mo. alagaan mo sarili mo, hindi para sa akin, hindi para sa kahit kanino, kundi para sayo.

"it's always been you and me.."

oo, its always been you and me. hanggang ngayon, it still is you and me. pro ngyon, hindi na tyong 2 lang. now, it's you and me and everybody else. the way we were before. sabay tyo mgging okay, sbay ntin kakayanin to. i promised you, "walang iwanan". and you know i dont make promises i know i can't keep.