busy but definitely not stressed

im in way over my head...i think...no not i think...im sure i joined to many orgs this year...

i was feeling so guilty about not wanting to help in tzu chi that when rec week arrived i eagerly signed up for 3 orgs (Celadon, ACLC and SPEED).2 of which are SOA orgs...not to mention the other things (they're not exactly orgs, u know) i joined back in highschool...ICA MC and ICA DWTL...plus my church org, FCCY....pra akong "org happy"...

hey don't get me wrong, i don't join anything i don't want to join....and so far, things are going great.i've got no problems w/ the people and i dont mind having a heavy workload, we've been trained to work under pressure in highschool.the workload's the least of my problems.what im concerned about is my schedule.

i've got friday prayer sessions in ACLC from 430-6, actually pwede ako mgpalipat sa tues session if i want but i'm still thinking about it kc my schedule for tues might change next sem.
i usually have MC prac on friday din from 430 till at most 8.habol nlng ako.haha.then i have SPEED every saturday morning, plus occasional DWTL meetings for the rest of the day until about 4 or 5, then FC mass at night.On Sunday, I have ACLC area from 745-12 or up to 1 depending on how skilled we are in rushing things....then i have the rest of the Sunday afternoon for studying or relaxing or whatever it is i feel like doing.i also have Celadon GK din pla for the rest of the sem but i dont know my schedule there yet, d pa sya nddecide.haha.

i don't mind not having time for myself...i never did consider "me" time important, come to think of it, i never did consider rest time as a time to relax or whatever.i consider rest as sleep.haha.so kunwari if i slept during the ride home, i'd consider that as resting already...i know getting enough sleep is important and stuff but sanay na ako ng kulang ng tulog e.haha.even if i can sleep early, i dont.when i staffed for batch 80, i didn't sleep at all the whole weekend, i think i got about 5 mins of sleep...i wasn't even sleepy when i went home Sunday night.i was just tired and "high"(not the kind of high you get from drugs or alcohol mind you) but not sleepy.i think of my org meetings, etc. as my relaxation time kasi they're always so much fun and i always look forward to those meetings.i never thought of it as a burden.

im just having a hard time balancing everything.i know MC and FC people understand and i don't really have to go everytime kc im in college already pro i dont wanna lose ties w/ all the friends i have there.and ayoko mfeel nla na pinagpalit ko na cla w/ my other orgs/friends in college.so far, i haven't found any org yet that i enjoy as much as FCCY, ICA MC or ICA DWTL. if pinapili mo ko right now, at this moment, i'd choose my 3 highschool families over my 3 soon-to-be families in college.maybe its because i haven't had enough time to do much in those 3 orgs.i've gotta give them a chance.i've gotta let myself grow.

its fun having to do loads of stuff that's not homework.it takes my mind off the things i dont wanna think about.yeah, i still think i joined too much...and yes, im having the time of my life.