it's 4:04 am, only 2 hours before i have to wake up and i still can't sleep.

it's not that i'm not tired, i am. i want to sleep. i just cant.

my mind's so busy.

i want you to grow up. and i know i have to as well. but i want us to be grown ups together. maybe thats why im holding back, because i'm scared i'd get tired of it all if i was the only one doing it.

i hate being so sure of something especially when i dont know how it's all going to end. there are so many things that have yet to happen. but i already know this is still how i want things to be when everything else have fallen into place - careers, family issues, everything else.

i want to skip everything and fast forward to the time when i'd know i was right about being sure.

just tell me when.