i used to always know what i wanted. i may not have been able to put my desires into words before, but i knew i wanted them.

im so lost in everything that happened this summer. it was supposed to be the greatest summer of my life. how did i manage to make it the worst?

i feel like everything is ruined and feeling that makes me feel hopeless about getting back on track. it makes me not want to do anything but mope and float.

i used to always know what i wanted. even when i got hurt, i knew what i wanted. and now i don't know what i want. i dont know how to deal with not knowing, how to go about life not knowing what im working for or where things are headed.

there are so many days when i dont feel anything. i dont feel happy. i dont feel sad. i dont feel anything, like im not capable of feeling anything but feeling lost.

i am lost. and i feel screwed because i am lost and i dont know how to find my way back.