hulaan

may ippost ako dpt na nkdrafts lng khpon. pro napag-isip-isip ko na hindi ko nlng rlga sya ippost kht cnbi ko kay kate na ippost ko pra mabasa nya. haha.

tamad ako mgaral so im bumming around. o ito. lyrics. merong mga tao na more than one number and may mga numbers na for more than one person. bhla na kyong mgassume kng pra knno ung mga yan. lyrics ang tingnan a, hindi title ng kanta.

1. Hahayaan nlang silang magkandarapa na manligaw sayo. - gitara, PnE

2. Aawit na lang at magpaparinig ng lahat ng aking nadarama. - gitara, PnE

3. If I had only one friend left, I'd want it to be you. - one friend, dan seals

4. Through the hard times, you understood. And without you there, I never could have coped with my problems on my own. - thank you, kavana

5. And anyone that I've ever known couldn't compare to the love that you've shown. - thank you, kavana

6. I can't say that I blame you, but you can't blame me. - when we die, bowling for soup

7. And I almost had you but I guess that doesn't cut it. Almost had you and I didn't even know it. - almost, bowling for soup

8. You caught me completely off-guard. - don't love you no more, craig david

9. Pinagtagpotagpo kami ng tadhana kahit pinanggalingan namin ay iba iba. Walang pakialam kung san mapadaan. Basta't sabay-sabay kaming nagtatawanan. - barkada, PnE

10. Good things come for those who wait. - candyman, christina aguilera

11. 'Cause it's your mystery that captures me. - one look, kjwan

12. What you said when you left, just left me cold and out of breath. - over you, chris daughtry

13. Fell too far, was in way to deep. I guess I let you get the best of me. - over you, chris daughtry

14. Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now? Can we survive it out there? Can we make it somehow? - graduation, vitamin c

15. I can't take the time until I next see you smile. - the distance, evan and jaron

16. 'Cause every time I see your bubbly face, I get the tinglies in a silly place. - bubbly, colbie caillat

17. Pakitigil lang please, ang iyong pagpapantasya. Hindi ka na nakakatuwa. - silvertoes, PnE

18. When you take, you take the very best of me. - cold as you, taylor swift

19. I won't always be around. - moving on, elliott yamin

20. There's only so much I can do for you. - must get out, maroon 5

sudden realization

when i reach 30..

i don't want to still have to pretend about meeting a "friend".

i don't want to still be forced to meet sons of my mom's friends just to please her.

i don't want to still not be able to introduce the person to my family.

i don't want to still move around the world scared that when i come home, they have already found out from someone else.

by the time i'm 30, i want to be able to say "yes, i like girls. so what?" and not worry about other people's reactions because the people who matter the most have already accepted me.

emo-han

galing to sa blog ng mahal kong si jera. hahaha. :) bigo un e. pero masaya ako ngayon kaya wla tong effect skn. haha. jera, dadamayan nlng kta.

***we get hurt a lot with people who promised to love us but left us hanging. and no matter how much you loved, you'll find yourself saying "mahal ko siya pero pagod na ako"***

...love can never be wrong. sometimes you blame the situation or even the person. but no matter who you blame, if it really wasn't meant for you, it just wouldn't...

~~~love comes from the deepest part of your heart, that's the reason why you die deep inside when you lose the one you love, 'coz he took a piece of your heart and left a hole within you that a new love can't mend~~~

```sa pag-ibig lahat nararamdaman. ang mangarap, ang umasa, ang mabigo, ang masaktan. pero ang pinakamasakit sa lahat ay iwan ka nang walang sapat na dahilan```

***a great love? it's when you shed tears and still you care for him, it's when he ignores you and still long for him. it's when he begins to love another and yet you still smile and say: "I'm happy for you"***

...minsan ayaw mong bumitaw sa kanya dahil sa ayaw mong mawala siya. pero wala kang magawa kung siya mismo nagsabi na: "wag ka na kumapit kasi bibitawan na kita"...

~~~ano ba ang tama? ang kalimutan siya kahit hindi mo kaya o patuloy siyang mahalin kahit mali na? lumayo at magmahal ng iba o patuloy mo siyang mahalin kahit sobrang nasasaktan ka na?~~~

```love is not a game na kung kailan mo gustong umayaw, aayaw ka. it's a sacrifice not for playing kasi pagnagmahal at nasaktan ka, di naman tuhod o siko ang masusugatan, puso db?```

dds

i didn't expect to have fun today. but i did. :) i learned A LOT. *sigh*

yes. i am happy right now. :)

goodbye cerelac

dati, sabi ko kay kate, ayoko na ng cerelac. kasi nakakasawa na. pero hindi ko rin naman siya tinigilan. but now..
it's official.
cerelac has lost its magic.
i found my new comfort food.

seaweed. love. :)

(pic c/o jamie)

med school

i'm thinking if i should still go to med school..

prng ayoko na mg-aral ulit ng another 4 yrs. pagod na kc ako e.

but then again, anu ggwin ko? i dont wanna be a psychologist.

i can't believe i'm experiencing moratorium.

oh well.

on 2nd thought, id rather study 4 yrs of med than study 18 units of education.

so...
pseudo-long term goal 1: pass nmat.
pseudo-long term goal 2: get accepted into ateneo med. (to avoid disappointment and further damage to me self-esteem, i wont even think of up med.)

napaisip lang

kaya mahirap mang-iwan kung alam mong may kaya ka pang ibigay.

kung alam mong kakayanin mo pa.

dahil dun sa mga moments na sobrang minsan lng mangyari.

pero kapag nangyari, sobrang saya.

as in ung tipong iisipin mo tlgang pwede ka na mamatay.

...

hay buhay..

kaya ang hirap mong iwanan e..

before studying social..

two hearts broken, one love gone wrong
each one is left with half a song
confusion's just floating around

waiting for answers to be found

you think this is a breeze for me
you are wrong, i hear your every plea
i'm still here but do i still have you?
why can't you see i'm hurting too?

what do i have to do to fix us?
what must i say to prevent such loss?
how do i go about loving you?
you don't even know if you'll pull through
will you just turn and walk away?
or will you wait for me and stay?

two minds thinking, a choice to be made
are the halves still in tune when played?
confusion's getting tired of it all
no answers come to break the wall

you speak, you move, unaware i hurt
don't play with me, is this all i'm worth?
your inconsistency's breaking me
each day's the same, stop the pain and save me

what do i have to do to fix us?
what must i say to prevent such loss?
how do i go about loving you?
you don't even know if you'll pull through
should i just turn and walk away?
or should i wait for you and stay?

please don't leave, don't walk away
we can always choose to stay

what do i have to do to fix us?
what must i say to prevent such loss?
how do i go about loving you?
you don't even know if you'll pull through

will you just turn and walk away?
or will you wait for me and stay?

should i just turn and walk away?
or should i wait for you and stay?

exes and ohs

why do people insist on chasing things that just don't wanna be caught?
- sam

it's easier to walk away. the harder choice is to stay.
- sam's therapist

*****

orjanic tsem time.

all over the place

wala nanaman akong gustong gawin.

wala nanaman akong ginagawa kung hindi humiga sa kama.

tinatamad pa akong mgupload. tinatamad akong mag-aral. tinatamad akong gumawa ng kahit ano.

sinabi ko na to sa ibang tao before christmas - gusto ko pumunta sa isang lugar na walang may kilala sakin. new home, new school, new friends (not that i wanna replace my friends), new everything. ewan ko. maybe i just want to relive a few things, take the other option, not be stupid, forget some stuff, hold my ground. tabula rasa.. i want a new start..

naisip ko, when it comes to people i love, nahihirapan akong tumanggi kahit kelangan. kahit alam kong mas masasaktan ako kapag pumayag ako. i'm stupid that way.. sabi nga ni ven, foot in the door phenomenon.

sometimes, things already have warning signs around them with flashing neon lights. and you still ignore the signs and go for it. because ure stubborn. because u wanted to go for it

*BOOM*

if you wish to love someone more, act as if you do.
- social psych book

and that's why i love my course.

naiinis ako

buhay

"sabi ko kapag d ka pumunta kkiss kta. sabi nya e d, d nlng ako ppnta"
- ano nga bang meron kayo? meron nga ba? meron pa nga ba?

*****

"Hindi mo ginusto 'to. Pero sa sarili ay may nangyayaring gulo. Walang nakakaalam, walang nakakarinig. Ayaw mong humingi ng tulong dahil alam mong wala ring makakatulong sa 'yo. Isa ito sa mga mapaklang katotohanan sa buhay. Maaring ngayon lang ito nangyari, pero alam mong maaari itong mangyari ulit, kahit kailan, kahit saan, kahit kanino." - ABNKKBSNPLAKo?!, Bob Ong
- may nakukuha rin pla kay bob ong kahit tungkol sa pagtae sa pantalon ang kwento niya.

*****

"when you love someone, you love everything about that person. you love everyone included in that person's life, whether you like it or not." - narinig ko lang sa radio kanina
- may mga bagay kang nagagawa na hindi mo alam na nagagawa mo na pala, lalo na kapag nagmamahal ka

*****

"i want to stop learning to love someone and just experience how it is to fall inlove. i want to fall for someone nang wala syang ginagawang kahit ano para mahulog ako sakanya." - hs friend
- wait for it dude. about the bedridden thing, tama ka. up to me. at hindi na ako mgging ganun ever.

*****

"if you don't feel the pain, you're doing it wrong" - jeds
"oo, kelangan maramdaman mo ung sakit para matuto ka" -kate
- natuto na ako.

still can't sleep

from sass.

http://www.paulsadowski.com/Numbers.asp.

You entered: joy cheryl pe chua

There are 15 letters in your name.
Those 15 letters total to 76
There are 5 vowels and 10 consonants in your name.

What your first name means:

Latin	Female	Happy.
French	Male	Rejoicing.
French	Female	Jewel; Rejoicing.
English	Female	Joy. Rejoicing.

Your number is: 4

The characteristics of #4 are: A foundation, order, service, struggle against limits, steady growth.

The expression or destiny for #4:
Order, service, and management are the cornerstones of the number 4 Expression. Your destiny is to express wonderful organization skills with your ever practical, down-to-earth approach. You are the kind of person who is always willing to work those long, hard hours to push a project through to completion. A patience with detail allows you to become expert in fields such as building, engineering, and all forms of craftsmanship. Your abilities to write and teach may lean toward the more technical and detailed. In the arts, music will likely be your choice. Artistic talents may also appear in such fields as horiculture and floral arrangement, as well. Many skilled physicians and especially surgeons have the 4 Expression.

The positive attitudes of the 4 Expression yield responsibility; you are one who no doubt, fulfills obligations, and is highly systematic and orderly. You are serious and sincere, honest and faithful. It is your role to help and you are required to do a good job at everything you undertake.

If there is too much 4 energies present in your makeup, you may express some of the negative attitudes of the number 4. The obligations that you face may tend to create frustration and feelings of limitation or restriction. You may sometimes find yourself nursing negative attitudes in this regard and these can keep you in a rather low mood. Avoid becoming too rigid, stubborn, dogmatic, and fixed in your opinions. You may have a tendency to develop and hold very strong likes and dislikes, and some of these may border on the classification of prejudice. The negative side of 4 often produces dominant and bossy individuals who use disciplinarian to an excess. These tendencies must be avoided. Finally, like nearly all with 4 Expression, you must keep your eye on the big picture and not get overly wrapped up in detail and routine.

Your Soul Urge number is: 2

A Soul Urge number of 2 means:
With the Soul Urge number 2, your motivation is centered on friendships, partnerships, and companionship. You want to work with others as a part of a cooperative team. Leadership is not important to you, but making a contribution to the team effort is. You are willing to work hard to achieve a harmonious environment with sensitive, genial people.

In a positive sense, the 2 Soul Urge is sympathetic, extremely concerned and devoted. The nature tends to be very sensitive to others, always tactful and diplomatic. This element in your nature indicates that you are rather emotional. You are persuasive, but in a very quiet way, never forceful. You are the type that makes really close friendships because you are so affectionate and loving.

If this number is over-emphasized in your makeup, you may be over-sensitive, with a delicate ego that is too easily hurt. You may be timid or fearful, too easygoing for your own good.

Your Inner Dream number is: 11

An Inner Dream number of 11 means:
You dream of casting the light of illumination; of being the true idealist. You secretly believe there is more to life than we can know or prove, and you would like to be provider of the 'word' from on high.

can't sleep

hindi ako makatulog. at nalulungkot ako.

this is what i hate about nights. may long quiz sa chem bukas, wala pa akong alam. 3 am na. but even necessity doesn't make you pay attention. may ibang gustong asikasuhin ung utak ko.

parang ayoko na ata. parang kaya ko namang wala. parang okay na to. parang masaya na ako dito.

puro parang. nawawala lng ung "parang" sa umaga. kapag kailangan niyang mawala, kapag pinipilit siyang alisin kasi hindi ako mag-isa. kasi may mga kaibigan ako, kasi kelangan kong gumalaw sa mundo kahit ayoko.

ayoko ng gabi.
- kasi nahihirapan akong matulog kahit sobrang pagod na ko
- kasi madami akong naiisip na ayoko namang isipin
- kasi wala nang takas
- kasi wala nang magagawa kung di tanggapin

si kate, may 3 points. change of lungs, change of liver, change of heart. planado.

hindi ko ata kaya gumawa ng ganun ngayon. kasi ngayon, lht ng plano ko hanggang bukas lng. kaya ganito nlng.

bukas papasok ako, masaya. manonood ako ng sportsfest. may laban ang tugon. baka mglaro ako ng volleyball.

bukas uuwi ako, masaya. pagod, pro masaya.

bukas makakatulog na ako nang maayos.

bukas hindi na ako malulungkot.

wala lang

it's okay to be nervous and scared about something. because that only means it's important.

just heard that somewhere.

and here's the thing.

you make me nervous everytime we're together.

you make me scared all the time.

8mcdo.com

ang galiiiing!

u can order from mcdo online! hahaha.

naaaliw ako! :D wheeeee!

matagal na ba to? kc ngayon ko lng nlman. hahaha.

pathetic post

i know it's not my birthday. i know matagal pa un. and i know it's too late for christmas wishes.

pero dba hindi naman kelangan birthday mo para makapagwish? hindi rin naman kelangan christmas?

1. i wish i was as confident as you are when it comes to that.

2. i wish i could just go back to highschool - college is beating the crap out of me.

3. i wish whatever kate and i talked about last night were nothing but speculations.

4. i wish i had the (strength) brains to save lives for a living.

5. i wish i'm an "optimist for life".

hindi kasi ako makatulog kagabi.

the moment i wake up..

i just saw a scene from "my bestfriend's wedding". ung kumakanta sila ng "i say a little prayer for you". nakakainis. haha.

someone sing that song to meeee. gusto ko kakanta din ung buong restaurant. haha.

asa.

cge, kontento na ko sa isang tao lng kakanta.

asa parin.

hahahahahahahahaha.

from kate coderes

1) BUDDY OF THE YEAR: kate coderes-montinola/..... (dahil kng san-san tyo nkakarating at dahil kung anu-anu nngyyri sa atin)
2) LIFETIME SERVICE AWARD: longest friend dw to. sharaleen chua, ikaw to. nasan ka na ba? grabe ka nmn. ngttampo na ko syo. hindi ka ngpparamdam.
3) NEWCOMER AWARD: anu to? newcomer sa buhay ko? haha. tie kay jeds at kay sass. hahaha.
4) HIGHEST POINT OF THE YEAR: middle of the year
5) LOWEST POINT OF THE YEAR: end of the year
6) BEST HOLIDAY: best holiday? haha. ewan. wala.
7) YOUR SONG FOR 2007: ewan ko. tintmad ako mgisip ng song.
8) best movie FOR 2007: one more chance, a love story
9) WHO DID YOU SPEND VALENTINES WITH AND WHERE? w/ my parents and my younger brother at shang
10) WHAT WERE YOU FOR HALLOWEEN? umm.. me?
11) RESTAURANT OF THE YEAR? tama c kate. mcdo.
12) KISS OF THE YEAR? ano ba tong tanong na to?
13) BEST DECISION MADE THIS YEAR? best decision.. to let go of some things i just cant keep.
14) WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS FOR NEXT YEAR? pass the nmat.
15) MOST STUPID ACTION WHEN DRUNK? THIS YEAR? haha. ewan. talked to ppl?
16) TV SHOW OF THE YEAR? house, greys
17) MOST LOYAL FRIEND(s)? kate, ven, leigh, sassy, mariel
18) HEARTBREAKER OF THE YEAR? sbi nga ni kate, "YUN NA YUN"
19) BIGGEST CHANGE OF THE YEAR? actually hanging out in mvp
20) NEW YEAR’S RESOLUTION? konting modification lng ng resolution ko last year

2007: In The Beginning
Where did you bring in the New Year? at home.
Who were you with? family, as always.
Did you kiss anyone at midnight? family.
Did you make any resolutions? yup.

2007: Your Love Life
Did you break up with anyone? trial separation
Did you get anything for Valentine's day? nope. umm.. a greeting? haha.
Did you meet anyone special? yeah.
Did you fall in love? yes.

2007: Friends and Enemies
Did you meet any new friends this year? yup. people in tugon, enta and regcom.
Did any of your friendships end? not really.
Did you dislike anyone? hmm.. yeah. but not all the time. hindi ung tipong mrinig ko lng ung pngalan, naiinis na ako. kpg may gngwa lng syang hindi tlga dpt gngwa.
Did you make any new enemies? no. thank goodness.
Did you resolve any fights? umm.. i dont know. yes? haha. ewan ko.
Who was your closest friend? kate, ven, leigh, sassy, mariel.
Who did you grow apart from? a few people.
Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships? wala pa nmn.

2007: Your BIRTHDAY!!!
Did you have a cake? yup. from conti's. :)
What did you do for your birthday? summer class. practice ng pol pot. celebrated at home. haha.
Did you have a party? nope. we ordered in.
Did you get any presents? yeah.
If so what was the best thing you got? someone greeted me days after, really unexpected. and my pink carnations.

2007: All about YOU
Did you change at all this year? tingin ko oo.
Did you dye your hair? ehe.. NO.
Did you get your hair cut? yup. gusto ko mgpgupit ulit.
Did you change your style? no.
Were you in school? most of the time.
Did you get good grades? gusto kong isipin na oo. pro d tlga e.
Did you have a job? depends on how u would define having a job.
Did you drive? i know how. pro d ako pnpygan.
Did you own a car? asa.
Did anyone close to you give birth? my cousin's wife gave birth to sean. feb14. haha.
Did you move at all? nope.
Did you go on any vacations? bohol :)
Did you leave the country at all? nope.
Would you change anything about yourself now? yup. i think kelangan e.

2007: Wrap Up.
Is 2007 a good year? some parts were good. some not so good. some were bad. overall, it was okay. it could've had a better start and a better ending.
Did 2007 bring any new insights? yeah. from philo and from friends.
Do you think 2008 will top 2007? sana.
If you could relive any moment which would you choose? akin nlng un.