one tree hill again

derek: what have i been trying to teach you? you can't live in fear. life is about taking risks, not being afraid to go after what you want.

peyton: i'm just not sure this is the right time.

derek: it never is. that's why it's called a risk.

dahil kay marielita

ito na a. sinagutan ko na.

se7en

1) Write down 7 things that piss you off (in no certain order).
a. mga taong pinapasabi sa ibang tao ang gusto nilang sabihin kahit na pwede namang sila ang magsabi sayo.
b. insensitivity (though i think im guilty of this sometimes. hehe.)
c. hypocrites
d. stalkers (as in bigtime stalkers a, ung mga harmless ok lng)
e. blackmail (emotional blackmail lalo na)
f. a different kind of "party" (kng hindi mget, wg na iget. haha.)
g. mga taong walang delikadesa

2) Now 7 things that make you happy.
a. JOKES. nyaha. pro d nga, seryoso.
b. TWIX. :) yummy.
c. babies
d. cartoons (haha. joy, tandaan sna na junior ka na nxt sch yr. at sa college jr. a, hindi hs.)
e. music (old cheesy songs! :D) - ica mc :)
f. movies (except really gory ones.. the hills have eyes.. *cringe*)
g. :)

3) 7 fun things that you wish you could get paid to do for a living.
a. reading books
b. bumming around (halatang tamad e. haha.)
c. talking and listening to people
d. taking things apart and seeing if i can put them back together (kung hindi ko mabalik.. oh well. hahaha.)
e. eating and sleeping (grabe. buhay baboy. haha.)
f. making stuff
g. saving lives (weh. asa joy, asa.)

4) tag seven people:
a. nixie
b. joanna
c. jamie
d. kate
e. miko
f. caresse
g. lor

dapat kasi, buong sem naghihirap..

at hindi ung sa finals lng. para nman hindi nangyayari ang mga sumusunod:

1. nagiging bestfriend ang lahat ng textbook (ung tipong kht saan, dla mo sya)

2. ngsasabay sabay ang exam. sabay sabay na nga, magkasunod pa, napakalayo pa ng venue sa isa't isa.

3. nalalaman ang value ng 5 points ( sbi nga ni kate, 5 quiz mistakes = hello histo finals )

4. napapanaginipan ang kung anu-ano dahil sa pag-aaral ng dalawang subject (i.e. naging buddhist si Jesus at pinag-aralan ng disciples kung panu maging samurai pra maprotektahan siya. si Veronica naman naging geisha. and romans, brahmin at and jews, untouchables.)

5. natatawag na nerd

6. nagugulat nlng na kmkopy pla ng notes

7. gumagawa ng bagong subject ( theology + history = theotory -> blog ko to. bawal mgcomplain tungkol sa kacornihan. sa thursday, chemistry + personality = chemality )

at ang huli sa lahat.. *drum roll* (take note - ito ang talagang hindi mo gugustuhing mangyari syo. promise. )

8. makatulog habang ngeexam dahil walang tulog buong gabi at pinagising pa ng prof sa katabi.

o dba? napakasaya tlga kpg hindi nag-aaral.

mas importante kasi to sa pag-aaral e..

ito ang dahilan kung bakit ako bumabagsak. habang ngaaral, mgbbreak ng 5 mins kunwari. tpos mmyang konti, 1 hour na pla ang lumipas. anyway, dahil pinabasa to skn ni kate, papatulan ko na rin. kng ganito lng lahat ng exam e.. kwatro kid na ko.

1. When was the last time you had
butterflies in your stomach?
-friday :) masaya.

2. When was the last time you kissed
someone?
-ewan ko. should i be keeping track?

3. Who was the last person to make you
cry?
-nyaha. lagot ka jamie. haha joke. hindi ako umiiyak no. at kung may ngpaiyak man skn, hindi ko illgay ang pangalan dito.

4. Has anyone told you that they like
you more than as a friend?
-yeah. pro joke lng ata un. haha.

5. Are you happy right now?
-joy nga ang pangalan ko dba?

7. Have you ever kissed two people in
one night?
-pwede bang aunts and uncles? kng pwde, d lng 2. haha.

8. Do you have a best friend?
-i have lots of close friends. best friend? sha, nixie, gs2 nyo mgapply? haha joke.

9. Are looks important?
-in what context? impt sa career? sa buhay in general? in a romantic sense? linawin ang tanong. pero no.

11. Would you bungee jump?
-cge ba, basta saluhin nyo ko kapag naputol ung tali.

12. Do you ride roller coasters?
-oo. roller coaster nga ang buhay ko e. weh??? hahaha!

13. Do you like beer?
-umm.. nalasaing ako 3/4 na san mig light. cge, tanong mo ulit skn if i like beer.

14. Are you sarcastic?
-accdg 2 yumi and jamie, hindi ako un kng hindi ako sarcastic

15. What's your favorite smell?
-gayahin ko sagot ni kate, hindi madescribe. 2nd favorite nlng, smell ng baby. pro hindi ung after nya tumae a.

16. What did you do 2 nights ago?
-thursday, gmwa ako ng postlab at tinulugan ang pagaaral 4 my chem lab longtest. friday, dinner at dencio's, watched pbb (oo na, jologs), ym.

17. Do you own something from a sex
shop?
-what?!!! FRIENDS, DO I OWN SOMETHING FROM A SEX SHOP??? dali, kayo ang sumagot para sa akin.

18. Do you smoke cigarettes?
-nde. weed lng. haha kidding.

19. Who last called you?
-last called me.. c aaron. ngppanic sa cpr. :)) haha.

20. Who last messaged you?
-text? o ym? sa text, c ven. sa ym, c kate.

21. How tall are you?
-hindi ko alam. seryoso. OMG!!! JAMIE MENDOZA, naalala mo ung "cr incident" nung debut ni sars?? scary..

22. Would you kiss someone of the same
sex?
-basta gawin mo rin after e.

23. What is the most embarrassing CD
you own?
-ewan.. haha. embarassing na ba ang disney? :P

24. Is there anything you wait for
every summer?
-every summer? may summer class kmi. pro iba ang summer class this summer e. :)

25. What's the most important thing in
your diary at the moment?
-diary ba ang blog? sa private blog ko un e. tungkol sa..

26. Would you kiss the last person you
kissed again?
-syempre. nanay ko un no.

27. What song describes your
relationship status?
-"sanaaaa dalawa ang puso ko, hindi na sana malilito" weh. watever, wla ngang dahilan pra malito e. haha.

28. Ever waxed your legs?
-nope. ouch, prng ang sakit a.

29. Earrings or necklaces?
-earrings. mtuwa kyo, d ako ngearrings dti no.

30. Who did you talk to most yesterday?
-yesterday? saturday pa today dba? c kate ata.

31. Are you a bad influence?
-hindi ako influential enough pra maging bad influence. haha/

32. What color are your eyes?
-black ata.

33. Would you rather have your name or
your siblings name?
-ok na ko sa pangalan ko. panlalaki na kc mga pangalan ng kapatid ko e. tpos kay atchie naman, dhl "jan" ang pangalan nya, madalas nasasabing "jon". so, hindi na. joy nlng.

34. When is the last time you held
hands with someone?
- haha. ewan ko. again, should i be keeping track?

35. What should you be doing right now?
-BUSTING MY BUTT STUDYING. but nooooo. im answering this survey.

36. Have you ever crawled through a
window?
-nde. may pintuan naman kaya.

37. Is someone in love with you?
-teka.. i need privacy.

38. Morning or night person?
-kung importante ka skn, kahit anong oras gising ako para syo.

39. What was the last movie you
watched?
-moviehouse: 300 dvd: you got me (jologs nnmn. nbubuking na ko a)

40. Do you have a crush on anyone
right now?
-sabi nila crush dw un, pro sbi ko nde. d nmn kc tlga e.

41. Any cool scars?
-wala. dpt ba ggs2hin kong meron?

42. Most attractive thing about the
opposite sex?
-eyes.

43. What are you listening to just now?
-wla. ung sound ng keyboard habang ngttype ako.

44. What do you do right before you go
to bed?
-pray. tpos think kng d pa ko inaantok.

45. Right when you get out of bed?
-put my glasses on tpos tingin sa cellphone for the time. kung may txt, mgbbsa at mgrreply.

46. What's your date of birth?
-feb 27, 1987

47. Where's your favorite place?
-kung kasama mo ang mga mahal mo sa buhay, kahit anong lugar pwedeng maging favorite.

48. Last time you had an alcoholic
drink?
-December 4, 2006. Tia Maria's Katipunan. kasama ko si kate. tpos mamaya pati si sars and reese. after history un e. mga 1+.

49. What underwear are you wearing?
-bkt, ikaw? anong underwear ang suot mo? basta may suot ka, wlang pakialamanan kng ano.

50. Do you have any bad habits?
-meron. too many to mention. haha.

masasayang usapan

ito ang mga usapang hindi mo ipagpapalit sa kahit ano.

"relationships come and go. but life only has one direction. forward."

morrie, is that you??? haha joke.

salamat miko, maraming maraming salamat. :D

isa pa..

"kung maputi siya, ano tayo??? transparent?!"

kate, salamat din sayo. haha. kaya tayo bumabagsak e. dahil sa mga naiisip nating tayo lng naman ang nakakaintindi. haha. isa pang.. *paging doctor bleach*

kamusta ka, joy?

ang daming nangyari this sem. masyadong marami. masyadong mabigat.

sabi ni ms. coo hindi totoong u cant have everything u want. totoo naman. u can. and for a time back there, i did.

pro ngyon, ang daming nang nabago. ang dami nang nasira.

u CAN have everything u want. just not all the time.

now, i am so far back from where i've been. so far na minsan, prang hindi ko na alam kung pano ko ba narating un o kung nakarating ba tlga ako dun.

i am so disappointed in myself. kasi masyado akong ngfocus sa lahat ng nasira at nawala. msydo akong ngpaapekto, hindi naman dapat. so kamusta naman ang buhay ko ngayon?

ganito ang buhay na nasira at kung pwede lang, ayoko ng buuhin ulit. pro hindi pwede. at ayoko na.

ayoko na kaya aayos na ko.

ilang oras na ba ang nasayang ko sa pag-iisip nang kung anu-anong bagay na wala namang kwenta.
ilang araw na ba ang tinapon ko sa pagpasok nang wala namang naiintindihan.
ilang linggo na ba ang hinayaan kong dumaan ng wala namang ginagawang kung ano para ayusin ang kung anumang natira sakin.

ngayon. ito ang simula ng seryosong pagbangon.

you can have everything you want. sabi yan ni ms. coo. pero hindi pa ngtatapos dyan.

you can have everything you want, as long as you're not stepping on anybody's toes.

masaya ang buhay kung gnyan. pero hinde. wala kang magagawa kung binabato ka ng mundo. saluhin mo nlng lht ng ibato syo. kapag okay ka na, ibalik mo lahat. wg mong ibato, iabot mo.

PANALO! (taking a breather)

masayang maglakad sa ateneo. lalo na kung sabog ka, sabog din ang kasama mo at hindi pa nangangahalati ang last 2 hell weeks of the sem. maraming pinagtatawanan (tulad ng appointment kay vicky bello ng isang special person in somebody's life -> weh?) at pinagkakaabalahan (kahit hindi nmn dapat - tulad nlng ng kotse sa parking na prng pgmmay-ari na ni manny villar dhl sa dami ng campaign sticker).

at syempre, kung intelektwal ang kausap mo *ahem ahem* magkakaroon at magkakaroon ng quotable quote.

AWAYIN NILA AKO NG HARAP-HARAPAN. DAHIL AAWAYIN KO DIN SILA.
-kathrina chriselle coderes

balang araw, makikita nalang natin yan sa isang librong ang title ay "Famous Quotations by Famous People". doctor na si kate nun. *paging doctor bleach*

masaya

"When your heart breaks, you gotta fight like hell to make sure you're alive. 'Coz you are. And that pain you feel, it's life. And the confusion you fear, it's there to remind you that somewhere out there is something better. And that something is worth fighting for."

i have found that something. :)

Isang Saglit - Ronnie Liang

Bigla na lang natulala na para bang bata

Kapag nakakakita ng nahuhulog na tala

Naganap ang lahat sa isang iglap

Isang saglit, isang tingin

Ba't ngayon lang napansin

O anong ganda, ako ba'y umiibig na?

Kung pwede lang di pumikit sayang ang sandali

At baka pa makapuslit ang karamyaang umakit

Pwede bang hingin ka sa langit?

Isang saglit, isang tingin

Ba't ngayon lang napansin

O anong ganda, ako ba'y umiibig na?

Mundo ko'y umilaw

Biglang luminaw

Pangarap pala'y ikaw

Isang saglit, isang tingin

Ito ba'y nadarama mo rin?

Sana ako'y mahalin

Sana ako'y mahalin

*****

wala lang. :)

ang labo

for some reason, today, i've never felt so alone.

hala joy... baka may psychological problem ka na..

wala lang

marunong akong lumugar.

patayin niyo na lang ako pwede?

ito nnmn ako

your smile makes everything brighter than sunshine












at nakakainis ka.

dahil hindi mo alam.

dahil ba to sa sipon??

*jamie and joy, seeing other ateneo students standing still, stop beside the batibot tree*

jamie: bakit tyo ngstop?
joy: pra sa alpha.. aah.. sa anthem.
jamie: alphabet?? *ngppigil ng tawa*

minsan lng tlga joy, tanga ka.

*jamie laughing*

kainis ka, jamie. lgi mo nlng ako pngtatawanan. but then again, sanay na ko. after all, imaclown. weh. labo.

marielita

o ayan, may sarili ka pang post. :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!

ilang taon ka na?? 19??? yes!!! mlpit na maging fossil. wait! d nga pla kta pwede lokohin kc mas matanda ako syo. :P

everyone, i would like you to meet someone so amazing, mppwow ka lng tlga. ito ang prinsesa ng bayan. hindi lng ng bayan, pti pla ng taiwan. punong puno to ng sobra. as in sobrang bait, sobrang sweet, sobrang talino (sorry na, scholar sa taiwan), sobrang kulit , sobrang corny (at ngslta ang hindi corny) at syempre, walang tatalo, SOBRANG VAIN.

enjoy ur day mariel. wg ka na mlungkot, be happy. :D if u need anything, mgsbi ka lng ha.

grabe lng tlga.

effort.

E-F-F-O-R-T

EFFORT.







yehes! i know how to spell!!!

taking a break

i've been studying for my theo orals and i need to stop and take a break.

~ and nat, mind you, this is all because of your blog entries. :P but thanks, napaisip din ako. i miss you, nat. i miss jans too. we should go back to ica one day. not because of mc, or days, or watever. but just because. let's sit at the highschool covered court once more and talk about nonsensical things only the 4 of us, jans, could understand. >:D< ~

ive changed so much since high school. some changes im proud of. and some im not. it's funny how everyone used to think i'd be on this "high" forever. ive been that way for so long that even i believed it would never go away. and yes, those were the days. but somehow, when i reached college, my hold on it loosened and eventually, i found that i had let it go.

and now, as im taking this breather, im grasping for something. trying desperately to feel what i once had. something i want back. yet, there's nothing. ive been out of touch for so long i can't find You.

i miss going to mass at 630 everyday in the ICA Chapel.
i miss singing w/ the fc choir every saturday mass at MTQ.
i miss the Disco.
i miss talking to You.
i miss living out my commitment.

Jess, I miss You.

kapag makulit ka nga nmn tlga..

sinabi na kc syo e, joy. sinabi na.

WAG MAGPAKATANGA.

ang kulit mo kasi. akala ko ba natuto ka na?? e bakit parang wala ka paring natutunan??

cge lng, ipagpatuloy mo lng yan. tingnan ntin kng hindi ka mamatay sa gngwa mo.

Sbi nga ni ven, "ingat lang sa puso mo, joy"

MAKINIG KA NAMAN!!!