is it really supposed to be like this?

everyday, when i wake up, i think of how i don't want to go to ue and sit through lectures about things i don't even understand.

and everyday, while i'm trying to comprehend whatever lesson the prof's talking about, i think of how i can study everything i need to study.

from 8-5, i think of how i can survive med and whether i can survive it. gusto ko maging doktor. pro marami nmng may gusto nun eh. halos lht ng nsa med school, gusto un. what makes me think na mgging doktor ako dhl lng ginusto ko.

i have so many doubts right now. not just about med, about myself too and everything else. in short, i've never doubted myself this much before.

ganito ba talaga dapat?

in all aspects of my life, why do i feel like i'm not in control of anything at all?

<3 - <3

i was talking to a friend a while ago and a thought that wasn't supposed to slip out, slipped. and because of it, it occurred to me how much i miss having heart to heart talks with people.

there are only a few people i get to do this with. only a handful.

i miss talking about life with people who i know won't write me off as emo, corny or whatever just because i said something contemplative for a change. (hindi ako nagpaparinig ha.)

it's nice to talk about life sometimes. kind of like philo but not really..

it's nice to be taken seriously every once in a while. and to feel that what you say matters to at least someone other than yourself.

it's nice to know that your thoughts are welcome.

*****

this whole extended summer is getting to me. =\

ched announcement

classes are suspended until june 15.

it's the first suspension of classes in med school and it's caused by a virus. there's a paradox in there somewhere.

I miss the cadavers. =/ but not really.

"mukha silang lechon"

huh, nice to know. i seriously thought they'd be cool-looking.. kinda like the ones you see in csi.

guess i'll be sticking to veggies and seafood for a while.

*****

my new friends are so innocent of what they're getting themselves into. =p

straight people don't have excuses for being straight

pic from postsecret

this is just sad. nobody should have to feel guilty for not having an excuse to be himself.
in the first place, there's no need for an excuse.